Thursday, May 7, 2015

It Makes No Sense

Faith means believing in advance 
what will only make sense in reverse.

So many times we've started out on a journey that made no sense to anyone and sometimes not even to us.  But we followed His call and His path for us and trusted that it would all make sense.  One day.

After losing the twins and having another surgery that left me bed-ridden for 10 weeks, we felt God calling us to leave our beautiful 4 bedroom/3 bath home with a big yard and a swing set (that we finally owned and not rented!) and go to Chicago.  It seemed crazy and yet we had such a true sense of peace.  We stored half our belongings and moved the other half to a tiny two bedroom apartment in a northern Chicago suburb.  It felt like we had gone backwards.  We'd been married 10 years and we thought our "lean" years of small apartments and living grocery visit to grocery visit was over.  But God had different plans and we followed Him.  It made no sense.  

And then a few years later, it made no sense when He seemed to be telling me to leave my job in education (after 14 years in public school systems) and go work at a non-profit in downtown Chicago.  It made no sense.  

And then He moved us to California for more schooling (and more tuition debt)...2,000 miles from family.  It made no sense.  But we followed.  

I don't know where we'll end up next but we've promised Him that we'll go wherever He wants us. 

Peace is so much better than being comfortable. 

Even if it makes no sense.